Sad Chris makes me sad… I think Anwar really hurt Chris with his comment about being paid.. They both really like each other, so Anwar shouldn’t assume the worst of his boyfriend, especially when he’s got him something before (tie at end of Shades of A). *sigh* I want them to kiss and it all to be better… =/
With regards to the tie, that’s not really a practical gift, it was a romantic gesture. A laptop is highly practical, and it probably makes Anwar feel like he’s being kept.
Chris is such a beautiful person with a huge heart. I am so angry with Anwar for hurting Chris like that, especially considering how difficult his life was when he tried to deny his needs. I totally <3 Chris…
I was about to say the same thing. I think, considering his reaction seemed to be like a knee-jerk thing he didn’t realize he had, he handled it as well as he could in a state of panic; excusing himself from the conversation to cool off and think it through. He came out calmer and explained why he got upset and gave a boundary so that this would work better in the future. But yes, he DOES need to specifically apologize for saying something hurtful. I hope he does, he’s does relatively well so far.
It’s impossible to fight when there is a cat in your lap, especially a poofy one. But it looks like to Chris the lap top was just and old thing and cost him nothing, so it didn’t seem like a big deal. When I got my best friend an xbox, I had to assure him it cost me nothing so he wouldn’t feel guilty. But Anwar really didn’t give Chris a chance to explain, so I hope he apologizes for that DOM lady dig.
Anwar will most likely apologise. I don’t thing this will end or do extreamly significant damage to the relationship. It will cause a sore spot though for awhile.
This arc is really hard for me to read. Seeing Chris’s expression reopens a load of guilt forty miles long… I’ve seen it before too, too many times in my husband before we got married. I even turned down getting engaged, because the ring was so expensive.
Gifts…complements…they are hard for me to accept. I’m so scared of taking them. I worry they come with strings and lots of times I feel like I don’t deserve them.
My parents were abusive… They often used gifts to manipulate me into doing things I wanted or to smooth over horrible things they did to me.
Seeing this arc makes me wonder what Anwar’s life was like for him to be like this. His mother seems wonderful, but he always seems to act mistrustful and later beat himself up in a way I’ve only seen in myself and friends with similar pasts. It’s really well-done, but so heart-breaking.
Firstly, I am so sorry for what your parents put you through, and that this chapter is digging at old wounds. *offers hugs if wanted*
As someone who’s ace who’s only ever really been in one relationship, I remember that my boyfriend and his family would be super nice to me, but because I was still trying to pass as hetero, it always made me feel like I was being paid to put up with the sex, or that it was payment for some other need I didn’t really understand. I didn’t really want it, but I knew he did, so I’d go along, though I tried to gently discourage gift-giving from him.
TL;DR- I think it’s some of his old hang-ups from his relationship with JD rearing their ugly little heads.
I think having it be an old laptop from work will help too. It means Chris didn’t spontaneously splurge on Anwar and is probably aware Anwar wouldn’t like that, or at least is aware that it’s too soon for extravagant gifts.
I did something similar to an ex-boyfriend. I’d mentioned looking for stuff for my dorm room, I forget what exactly I said, but that later that day, he showed up with a TV like “Look what I got you!” and so proud of himself. I didn’t react well. It turns out after stupid yelling that he got the thing from a yard sale, super cheap. I felt like such an ass.
It’s not what Anwar said so much as the way he said it (harsh phrasing + sudden yelling). It implies disgust, and the fact that he pulled back immediately after only accentuates it. If he’d calmly said something like “I don’t want to feel like you’re buying my affections”, and then leaned forward to reassure Chris upon realizing that the phrase could be hurtful, instead of pulling away, then I would believe that Anwar isn’t prejudiced and actually cares about someone other than himself.
The dommes don’t really have anything to do with the issue they are trying to resolve, and bringing them up (especially in that way) only makes it look like Anwar has an issue with Chris seeing dommes after all, and it’s been eating at him so he just blurted it out.
Cats help mediate arguments. Omg poor Chris though.
Has Chris been crying? He looks quite red around his eyes.
I thought the same thing.
Same
Sad Chris makes me sad… I think Anwar really hurt Chris with his comment about being paid.. They both really like each other, so Anwar shouldn’t assume the worst of his boyfriend, especially when he’s got him something before (tie at end of Shades of A). *sigh* I want them to kiss and it all to be better… =/
Did Poof swing around or…? Cuz now his head is facing opposite direction based on orientation of couch..
Chris was moving over to make room, Anwar is sitting down beside him in the last frame, so odds are Poof got turned around in the process.
With regards to the tie, that’s not really a practical gift, it was a romantic gesture. A laptop is highly practical, and it probably makes Anwar feel like he’s being kept.
Chris is such a beautiful person with a huge heart. I am so angry with Anwar for hurting Chris like that, especially considering how difficult his life was when he tried to deny his needs. I totally <3 Chris…
PS I hope Anwar’s next words are an apology for what he said. Maybe with a hint of groveling…
I was about to say the same thing. I think, considering his reaction seemed to be like a knee-jerk thing he didn’t realize he had, he handled it as well as he could in a state of panic; excusing himself from the conversation to cool off and think it through. He came out calmer and explained why he got upset and gave a boundary so that this would work better in the future. But yes, he DOES need to specifically apologize for saying something hurtful. I hope he does, he’s does relatively well so far.
It’s impossible to fight when there is a cat in your lap, especially a poofy one. But it looks like to Chris the lap top was just and old thing and cost him nothing, so it didn’t seem like a big deal. When I got my best friend an xbox, I had to assure him it cost me nothing so he wouldn’t feel guilty. But Anwar really didn’t give Chris a chance to explain, so I hope he apologizes for that DOM lady dig.
Anwar will most likely apologise. I don’t thing this will end or do extreamly significant damage to the relationship. It will cause a sore spot though for awhile.
Oh god. Has Chris been crying? He looks like he has. My heart has broken. Why. >:
This arc is really hard for me to read. Seeing Chris’s expression reopens a load of guilt forty miles long… I’ve seen it before too, too many times in my husband before we got married. I even turned down getting engaged, because the ring was so expensive.
Gifts…complements…they are hard for me to accept. I’m so scared of taking them. I worry they come with strings and lots of times I feel like I don’t deserve them.
My parents were abusive… They often used gifts to manipulate me into doing things I wanted or to smooth over horrible things they did to me.
Seeing this arc makes me wonder what Anwar’s life was like for him to be like this. His mother seems wonderful, but he always seems to act mistrustful and later beat himself up in a way I’ve only seen in myself and friends with similar pasts. It’s really well-done, but so heart-breaking.
Firstly, I am so sorry for what your parents put you through, and that this chapter is digging at old wounds. *offers hugs if wanted*
As someone who’s ace who’s only ever really been in one relationship, I remember that my boyfriend and his family would be super nice to me, but because I was still trying to pass as hetero, it always made me feel like I was being paid to put up with the sex, or that it was payment for some other need I didn’t really understand. I didn’t really want it, but I knew he did, so I’d go along, though I tried to gently discourage gift-giving from him.
TL;DR- I think it’s some of his old hang-ups from his relationship with JD rearing their ugly little heads.
For a second there I thought it was Chris saying meow…
And oh dear. I can understand Anwar’s need to set boundaries im a situation like this, but he wasn’t that nice about it.
Chris looks so sad :'(
Poof: Oh, who cares about your problems, pet me!
I think having it be an old laptop from work will help too. It means Chris didn’t spontaneously splurge on Anwar and is probably aware Anwar wouldn’t like that, or at least is aware that it’s too soon for extravagant gifts.
I did something similar to an ex-boyfriend. I’d mentioned looking for stuff for my dorm room, I forget what exactly I said, but that later that day, he showed up with a TV like “Look what I got you!” and so proud of himself. I didn’t react well. It turns out after stupid yelling that he got the thing from a yard sale, super cheap. I felt like such an ass.
It’s not what Anwar said so much as the way he said it (harsh phrasing + sudden yelling). It implies disgust, and the fact that he pulled back immediately after only accentuates it. If he’d calmly said something like “I don’t want to feel like you’re buying my affections”, and then leaned forward to reassure Chris upon realizing that the phrase could be hurtful, instead of pulling away, then I would believe that Anwar isn’t prejudiced and actually cares about someone other than himself.
The dommes don’t really have anything to do with the issue they are trying to resolve, and bringing them up (especially in that way) only makes it look like Anwar has an issue with Chris seeing dommes after all, and it’s been eating at him so he just blurted it out.