And for the record, if ‘War were my friend, and I was in JD’s position (though the reverse is more likely to be true, as I’m totes Ace), I would *pray* for a friend to tell me something like what Anwar tells JD.
My first ex discovered they were ace about…three weeks after we first became sexually active. We were 15, and this was…oh heck, over 10 years ago, now, so there WERE no resources. I spent so long wondering if it was -me-. If I fucked up so badly I ruined him, and for a very long time after our (amicable) breakup, I was very sexually unconfident and frightened in sexual situations. What if I ruined someone else? What if I was just that unattractive and that unlovable? What if no one ever saw me as sexually beautiful…?
I wish that there had been resources like this, and like many others I’ve seen, back then. It would have saved both myself and them a lot of pain. We’re still best friends, but until we were much older, we had no idea what had happened, and what went wrong, and how to TALK about that. We’re both healthy adults, now…it just seems so silly in retrospect. I don’t blame them at all; I already had very depressingly low self esteem, and so did they…I’m just glad we know better, now.
They’re a very, very vanilla grey-ace now, and I’m…well, a polyamorous and extremely kinky little girl (ageplay, ns and s). Don’t be ashamed to be yourself, and learn as much as you can! It helps, and it helps you, and your loved ones, understand what you need and that NOTHING is ever anyone’s fault.
Hugs Anwar, you said just the right thing there at least. JD is being sage and suportive but when they needed you to be sensitive to their feelings you stepped right up and did so, good for you. I think broadening his emotional network is really helping Anwar develop as a person.
Aaaand now I have that song in my head… *boom shika boom shika boom*
JD breaks my heart. That had to be a super huge blow to their ego, even if they do understand that Anwar is ace. That’s partially why I’m afraid to get into relationships, I’m afraid I can’t make the person understand that I love them and want to be with them but it’s sex that grosses me out, not THEIR body specifically
I was worried about that in my previous relationship. I asked her if she was okay with me not being sexually attracted to her. She was, but then again, I’m not sex-repulsed, so our experiences may be a little different depending on how you feel.
yep just for a chance. I really want noodles now though.
Aaaaw. *offers JD and Anwar epic hugs*
And for the record, if ‘War were my friend, and I was in JD’s position (though the reverse is more likely to be true, as I’m totes Ace), I would *pray* for a friend to tell me something like what Anwar tells JD.
My first ex discovered they were ace about…three weeks after we first became sexually active. We were 15, and this was…oh heck, over 10 years ago, now, so there WERE no resources. I spent so long wondering if it was -me-. If I fucked up so badly I ruined him, and for a very long time after our (amicable) breakup, I was very sexually unconfident and frightened in sexual situations. What if I ruined someone else? What if I was just that unattractive and that unlovable? What if no one ever saw me as sexually beautiful…?
I wish that there had been resources like this, and like many others I’ve seen, back then. It would have saved both myself and them a lot of pain. We’re still best friends, but until we were much older, we had no idea what had happened, and what went wrong, and how to TALK about that. We’re both healthy adults, now…it just seems so silly in retrospect. I don’t blame them at all; I already had very depressingly low self esteem, and so did they…I’m just glad we know better, now.
They’re a very, very vanilla grey-ace now, and I’m…well, a polyamorous and extremely kinky little girl (ageplay, ns and s). Don’t be ashamed to be yourself, and learn as much as you can! It helps, and it helps you, and your loved ones, understand what you need and that NOTHING is ever anyone’s fault.
Keep that in mind, kiddos.
May I ask what ns and s stand for? Google’s no help, unless it means non-sexual and sexual
It does! I’m largely non-sexual in that regard, though. It’s a very rare thing. I never mind questions, though. :)
Hugs Anwar, you said just the right thing there at least. JD is being sage and suportive but when they needed you to be sensitive to their feelings you stepped right up and did so, good for you. I think broadening his emotional network is really helping Anwar develop as a person.
Aaaand now I have that song in my head… *boom shika boom shika boom*
all da milkshake
JD breaks my heart. That had to be a super huge blow to their ego, even if they do understand that Anwar is ace. That’s partially why I’m afraid to get into relationships, I’m afraid I can’t make the person understand that I love them and want to be with them but it’s sex that grosses me out, not THEIR body specifically
I was worried about that in my previous relationship. I asked her if she was okay with me not being sexually attracted to her. She was, but then again, I’m not sex-repulsed, so our experiences may be a little different depending on how you feel.
Fo’ shizzle, Anwar.